Life

So life doesn't seem to be getting any easier, not that I expected it. I just wish that at some point things would start to turn around. Maybe I should try and focus on the good things in my life. The things I'm grateful for. Like my two rambunctious out of control boys, althought they drive me crazy and I'm glad that I have them.They love me no matter what. (Except when they are mad and yell at me.) I'm thankful that I have a job, it might not be my favorite and there might be contention between me and some co-workers. But I have an understanding boss who works with me instead of firing me. And I get paid a good salary. I'm thanksful for my family that loves me no matter what I say or do. I grateful for my senses, that I can see, and hear, and smell, and taste and feel.

I've heard it said that if you start listing you blessings you'll soon forget about your problems. Maybe I'm just not trying enough, they seem to be in the foremost of my mind all the time, making it hard for me to concentrate on anything else. I should be happy this weekend should be one of celebration, but I don't have the motivation to make my self leave the house. I know I need help, but I don't know where to turn.

I feel safe posting this here and getting it out, because it's been so long since I posted that most likely no one is reading my blog and it can just be a journal for me. I guess I could make it private then that would really keep it from being read, but I think that somewhere in the back of my mind maybe I do want people to know how I feel Maybe there is someone who can help me.

Going to try again

Well once again it's been a long time since I posted anything on here. :) Let's see a quick update of sorts. The end of May beginning of June, Guy and I along with Megan, Melissa and Gary had the wonderful opportunity to head down to Brazil and pick up Jacob. It was so awesome. We had a really good time. Jake is now home, and about 4 weeks after he got home he proposed to his cute loving adorable girlfriend Kathryn. They have set a date of October 1st.

Ashley graduated from Fremont High School just before we left to get Jake. It was a nice ceremony, not too long and good talks. She's working for the summer and going away to school in the fall. It's going to be weird to be here just Guy and I with the boys in a few months, but it's an exciting time for her to be going out on her own.

Megan graduated from UVU with her Associates of Science degree and is now working and preparing to go on her mission. She's pretty excited and has a good head on her shoulders with what she wants out of life.

Caden finished first grade and is getting excited to be a second grader in school. He has recently hit a growth spurt. I can't believe how fast he is growing up.

Zach is getting excited to start Kindergarten. It seems strange to think that my little boy is five. He still seems so little to me compared to other kids his age.

Me, I've just been taking it day by day at work and home. I feel like I have way too much to do and not nearly enough time to do it. I know that's how pretty much everyone feels. But it weighs down on me alot. Anyway, I'm thinking of using this as an outlet to get off my chest how I feel. I hope it works.

Only 102 days until......

Jake comes home. I know it's crazy I can't really believe it myself, I'm sure the next three and a half months are going to fly by. Guy and I are hoping that we can go down and pick him up. That would be the trip of a life time. In honor of Jake coming home I'm going to read the Book of Mormon in 100 days. I found a chart to help keep me on track, it also has a quote by an apostle or other leader and then a thought question. I'm going to try and post the thought questions along with my response so that I keep my motivation up. I'm excited to start this, anyone else that wants to give it a try here's where I found the charts. Mormonshare.com and smileadventures Good Luck and Enjoy